I struggled to make friends. This often left me lonely, so I turned to other things. Most of the time, I played, read fiction books, and watched TV alone. I was glad that my mom was always there when I came home from school. Visiting with her was the best part of the day.
After I finished 6th grade in 1981, my family moved from Bellevue, Washington, the only home I had known, to Snohomish, Washington. My dad's job had transferred to Everett. I didn't understand then why we had to go, and I was very sad to leave my best friend behind.
After the move, all was changed--I didn't have anyone I could count on to talk to anymore. When I began Junior High that fall, two bullies made my life miserable with mean looks and taunting words. These bullies treated my new friends the same way. Talking to my friends helped me feel brave for awhile, but they didn't know what to do either.
My dad gave me an answer. For my birthday that year, he passed on to me the radio that my older sister had used. Friday nights became a fun time; I'd listen to a radio program called "American Top 40," a countdown of the most popular songs that week. It seemed exciting for awhile, but I became frustrated. I wanted to decide what I liked. I turned the dial and found other songs, especially love songs, to ease my loneliness.
When a beautiful love song ended, I would enjoy the memory for awhile. But I found that the happiness never lasts. I felt even lonelier, and searched for something else. Then I stumbled upon a station playing Christian hymns. Their beautiful melodies soothed me; and their words of faith gave me hope. I realized that something was missing in my life. The chorus to the hymn, "The Solid Rock," became a favorite: "On Christ, the solid Rock I stand; All other ground is sinking sand, All other ground is sinking sand." Later on, I found some Christian radio programs and listened for answers.
One Christian radio program drew me. I listened to it whenever it was on. And I began to need it more and more. I found myself hurrying to the living room radio to tune it in, instead of using my own radio. There was nothing else to turn to.
In September, 1983, I heard someone say that Jesus died for my sins and would save me if I invited him in. He would save me from hell. I was afraid; I felt an urgent need to talk to God. But, I forced myself to wait until bedtime, so I'd have privacy. Then I cried, turned to God, and asked Jesus to be my Saviour and Lord. Afterward, my heart filled with a great peace and I fell asleep.
The next morning, I cried for joy as I told my mom what had happened. My loneliness left me. And, I gained a heavenly Father who loves me no matter what I do--the One who meets all my needs.
Since then, I've learned to serve Him by encouraging others in creative ways like creating greeting cards, writing freelance articles about what He has taught me, and sharing songs at my church. One song I shared reassured a man facing heart surgery soon. The song invited people to come to Jesus and let Him give them rest. From where I stood, I saw him relax and smile, and I was glad.
Knowing Jesus has given me peace, purpose, and the wisdom to live my life, no matter what troubles may come.
Here are some helpful things that God wants you to know:
God is holy, without any sin, but your sin has shut you out from a relationship with him. It’s a sad truth that “all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God," (Romans 3:23).
You may have tried everything to be happy and find peace, yet failed. Only God can give you what you really need, because "the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Jesus Christ our Lord," (Romans 6:23).
Because you are unable to take away your own sins, God sent his Son to do it for you. "God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us,"
God loves you more than you can imagine. It's that wonderful. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life,"
God loves you so much that he tells you how you can know him: "If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved," (Romans 10:9).
Are you ready to come to Jesus? Please, come now!
He is waiting to welcome you with open arms.
"But as many as received him, to them gave he
the power to become the sons of God, even to them
that believe on his name," (John 1:12).
You can pray something like this:
Oh God, I need you. I'm so sorry for my sins. Please,
forgive me. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and
rose again the third day. Please come into my heart
and be my Saviour and Lord. Amen.
God bless you.